Friday, March 4, 2011

时间_归去




人也走了

想......

回到过去


人已不在

心也变了

不存在的

事与物....

手上拿着巧可力

发现原来是你最爱的

我不懂

不是没放下

而是回亿在旋转

该走的都已走了



写到这里.....
眼泪从我的手心滑过掉落在键盘上...
不是难过而是心酸....
不适合的两个人...
在不适合的时间喜欢了对方....
还记得那个车站...
还记得那个拥抱...
还记得那滴眼泪...


不舍得放开的双手....
还紧紧地握着...
慢慢狠下心的....
松开了...




然后我们默默转身的往自己的未来飞去......

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

"Busy month...."


its like always the same thing when i gonna start to blog...
then i would say....long time didn't update dy larh....!
DENG....!!!!sorry larh....not a famous person and don't think any1 will really like to update my stuff everyday...so i will just blog like once a while....like a blue moon...so whatever larh...just talk crap only....btw.....FEB to me was like....!!!bz bz bz bz shit...!!!cause i start to work dy and the work is like kinda wack larh somehow....didn't get really that high salary but...eh hemmm..nvm....don't wanna talk too much abt my work cause damn annoying me when i start thinking abt it...so...competition keep going on like non stop 2 weeks train like shit...the 1st competition is at times square is organize by YMM...is a street dance competition...but einzeln lady didn't do our really best...cause member time crashing....some have to go back early and some have to come late...and the late 1 will be me larh..cause i'll will be always crashing my working time with my training time..so ya....apologize to my group member...but its still a not bad experience tho...cause we will get back where the way we are...cause einzeln lady are just too awesome...i know larh.....everyone have their own issue and problem but sometimes i hope our group could get more stick together like not that stick i mean try to understand each other and try to work out what is the best for our group....cause if we didn't start to communicate and just keep it in our heart...what for...?and members will just start and back stab and politics will come out all like shit....so...just hoping mind set will grow and we should just try to cooperate each other..cause we're a team not a single solo woman or something....team work and trust are really important..so i hope we gonna improve through all this and become a better team as well....btw.....feb 27 is the damn korean cover contest....quite fun lar but the organizer kinda suck larh sorry no offence...cause they keep changing places and date and make us go freaking crazy like wth....every1 is just confuse...and some of the team still quiting the contest....but...somehow..i think all is just not about money...is experience...just think we need to get more experience to go to the more higher level for us...don't know what you guys think abt...but i seriously do very enjoy this competition much...met alots off my fren....its like don't know how many year didn't saw them dy...progression...ahahaa...they still kinda attracting when they on the stage...they have the style i guess.......not very well in dancing but.....entertaining damn good..holy crap all the girls are just crazy for them like shits...!!!ahaha...!!!is a compliment okays...?!!?progression fans...don't mind me kays...??i'm just jealous....ahahaa...!but nvm larh....atleast we still rox the stage...!!EINZLEN LADY.....!!!!SCREAMMMMMM....!!!ahahaa....!!!we always do enjoy when the ordians scream for us...btw...most important....for so long i get a compliment from you...!we know each other like 3 years dy and i get this compliment after 3 years..!!izzit too late huh!!!!!!ahahaa...!!!!u know i'm talking abt YOU...!!!!ahahaha..!u know right...?but nvm larh...i still very love you as a fren....and by the times go by....i have resign the damn job larh...so i will be damn freaking free starting tomorrow...DATE me larh people...!!!!i'm damn single lor okay...!!!!ahahaa...!!!!but mostly i damn picky...!i know right...!ahahah...!i was wondering who will be my next bf anyway....since i don't have any now...and sorry for a dude that keep waiting me and fetch me here and there.....i'm like taking you for granted....!ain't i....??but...i'll stop as soon as well...i hope u could just get over me and you will meet a better girl and i swear..cause i'll pray for you first before i pray for myself to getting a new bf...feel damn bad to see you emo for nothing....but u keep telling me that your feeling better...i just know u don't want get me to worried......i hope we could just stay cool as a fren...don't wanna to lose any fren in my life...every1 is just special in my life..but so so sorry ur not the 1 i'm looking for.....reject is the best way for both off us......what a holiday for me....like been through alots off thing...still kinda blank right now...and i really need to start for my p licence test dy....good luck everyone...may ur day become more precious as ur usual day do....cause every is a precious babe....... you guys....stay peace and stay cool tooo.......hugs and...CIAO'S.....! <3

Monday, January 10, 2011

时间

时间...
时间.....
时间........

才发现我浪费了很多时间...
才发现我想做的事情太多....

yesss..i really have alots off thing i feel like want to do..most off all i don't have time...thin back slowy...where all my time...???what i've been doing all off this time..???sigh....actually....i really really really wanna get my damn licence like seriously..!!!!keep on study for the undang and learning how to drive....but...where's my time...suddenlly have to work...suddenlly have to do this and that...CRASH MAN...!!!CRASH...!!!urgh...i hate when everything come suddenlly...cause....i don't have time for it....sigh....everybody keep on asking me why...but i m tireed of explan again again and again...seriously i don't have the mood larh....i wanted to have a vocal training like seriously..!!!i wait for so long and finally u found me and discuss with it..!!!by that time i have interview a new job...!!!argh..!!see..!!u know what i m saying..?!!!!on the spot..!!!on the same day...!!!!its like damn wtf...!!!!urghhhhh..!!!now i ahve to get my licence..!!!my vocal training..!!!and work...!!!pls larh.....can i just give up working and go for the vocal training instead...!!!!!cause i love it so muchh...!!!!but....other wise i still need money..!!!arghh...!!!!i hate it when ut comes along...!!!!!F...!!!!!how can i seperate the time..??or mayb i should seperate myself in to half so i can make it everything...!sigh......i really damn regret dahhhhh.......FAINT.....almost faint.....ok larh..i know i keep on bubbling on stupid stufff..!!but damn..!!!i know i can do it...!!!!!pls...!!!!just gime me some time and gime me strength plssss...i need it alot...cause....everything is so crazily unstoppable...tell me abt it....don't care whether its going to failed or what...!!!!i m going to take the stupid undang already...!!!!wish me luck..!!cause i have study for it all the time.....for this new job that i just interview...cause i don't feel like staying at home everyday....feel like doing something not just staying at home crap all the time....there....interview a job that i don't really like too...receptionist...!all the account thingy..!!hahaha...!!i know..!!!unbelieveable...!mwah hahaha..!!!seriously..!!i hate to count..!!and most off all i don't like to use my brain to count everything...cause will be damn 7 tiring larh...!ahahahaha...!but...nvm larh.....the salary still not bad.....hope the stylish won't ask me to do more than reception job...don't wanna touch those saloon thingy.....scared off it..!!!phobia off washing hair everyday..!!and hand start cracking..!!!!YUCKSSSS..!!!if u start to ask me to alots off thin...den i'll start to say byebye...ahahaha...!!ok larh....thats all...now..i m gonna start my driving classes before i start the work...but...nvm larh....when working i still have to take some off day to get the licence..!!cause i have to get my licence before april..!!!before i start my collage...!!!!wish me luck in everything..!!!i mean....everything.....feel so release after bubble all the shit out...!!!not a bad day for today..feeling warm and cacat...!ahahaha...hope everyday is just gonna be like this....cause u know why...???i犯贱lorh.....!nights peeps...end with alots off hugging...!!!


ps:i m still miss u....ya i do.....:)