tuesday

11:37am

17/08/2009





being no mood at all..!

having pressure like shit...!

trial..trial....trial...!

is driving me nutss...!

facing the same problem...

like.....everyday......

only dance can make me forget abt everything..

throw myself into the music...

enjoying the beat...flowing with the movement...





ur attitude is making me go crazy....

i m like...wat the hell u mean....?

sms is unmatured...?

phone eah other is unmatured...?

acc each other is acting childish....?

i dun understand....~

wat do u mean by matured...?

u juz only 1x....

i.....didnt wan more from u....

izzit...a little bit of caring....will make u feel disgusted....?

issshhh.. goin to screw myself...!!!





i juz feels like i m goin to say...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U....!





jenjen....where r u...?

yeezie needs u....!

omg....

jenjen....~

wuwuwuwuwuwu....!

today didnt go to studio...

coz our taecher tonight have a show need to perform...

haizz....boring...

nothin to do at home...

juz do some revision n write some essay..

hmm...

my skool trial exam is coming...

strat to feel nervous ady...haizz...

today...feel kinda moody...

because have an arguement with xxx...

i think is not srguement also...

juz...he telling the truth..

the truth dat i cant even accept..

haiz....y is tis happening again...?

i dunno y....keep facing da same problem again..

haizz.....god...!!r u enough ady...?

i m facing family problems...

is starting to let me getting tired...

watever i wanna do...

will always not be acceptable....

y...?

i juz need some1 dats knoe me more...

cares abt me more...

arghh....!!!!speecless abt everything dat happens to me...

wat should i wish 4..?

i wish 4 a family dat cares n know abt me...

i wish dat...u might be....there 4 me...

coz..i m goin to fall....anytime...any moment...

其实我到底还在等待些什么..?

你的回应吗...?

明知道是不可能改变的事实..

为什么我还是要抱着那渺小的希望呢..?

是我笨...是我蠢..永远看不清..

醒醒吧...蔡丝伊....~

:::a happy n secure day:::

wake up in 11 something...

there was noise coming from the living room...

looks beside me...my cousin all were wake up..

walk out from the room..

every1 is watching tv...

feel kinda secure when i c they all..

my cousin....they still there...

not like home...when i wake up....i always feel lonely...

coz...when i wake up i will always heard them say "moring"...

very comfortable...very sweet...

there is always something dat i cant even wants from my family....

hmm....but...i will always get from them....

ha...!i m very glad they were here with me...

after i wash my face...

we all went out 4 having our "brunch"..

"brunch"=breakfast n lunch...

we go a cafe dat name "departure lounge"....

when i walk in....i feel very nice...

coz...the cafe makes me feel dat i m home...

hehe...got a fermiliar feel when i walk in..

hmm....den....no 1 is taking order from us...

coz we need to pick ourself...

there a paper there n u can choose the food dat u like..

n make it to a set...

hmm....i choose...

chicken hotdogs,turkey ham,scramble egg,harshbrown,n two bread..

if u knoe me...u will knowhow much i hate strawberry flovor...

but..need to admit their strawberry jam is yummy...!!

kakakakzz....

every1 is eating n laughting...

keep talk crap....

kakakakzzz....

is a happy moment 4 my life..

i feel happy if i m with them...

i noneed to hide all my feelings...

i nonit tot hink wat to say...

i juz will say it out loud....

i m here..i knoe dat i m not lonely...

i m here...bcoz..i knoe...my lovest cousin very sayang me...

i love them very very much...

thx 4 being here with me...

thx god 4 letting me having them as my cousin....

i m happy n i m proud....

i have 2 smart cousin dat always wont look down at me...

i have a crazy cousin dat will always hayper with me...

is enough....really enough....~

haha....~