时间_归去

人也走了

想......

回到过去


人已不在

心也变了

不存在的

事与物....

手上拿着巧可力

发现原来是你最爱的

我不懂

不是没放下

而是回亿在旋转

该走的都已走了



写到这里.....
眼泪从我的手心滑过掉落在键盘上...
不是难过而是心酸....
不适合的两个人...
在不适合的时间喜欢了对方....
还记得那个车站...
还记得那个拥抱...
还记得那滴眼泪...


不舍得放开的双手....
还紧紧地握着...
慢慢狠下心的....
松开了...




然后我们默默转身的往自己的未来飞去......

"Busy month...."

its like always the same thing when i gonna start to blog...

then i would say....long time didn't update dy larh....!

DENG....!!!!sorry larh....not a famous person and don't think any1 will really like to update my stuff everyday...so i will just blog like once a while....like a blue moon...so whatever larh...just talk crap only....btw.....FEB to me was like....!!!bz bz bz bz shit...!!!cause i start to work dy and the work is like kinda wack larh somehow....didn't get really that high salary but...eh hemmm..nvm....don't wanna talk too much abt my work cause damn annoying me when i start thinking abt it...so...competition keep going on like non stop 2 weeks train like shit...the 1st competition is at times square is organize by YMM...is a street dance competition...but einzeln lady didn't do our really best...cause member time crashing....some have to go back early and some have to come late...and the late 1 will be me larh..cause i'll will be always crashing my working time with my training time..so ya....apologize to my group member...but its still a not bad experience tho...cause we will get back where the way we are...cause einzeln lady are just too awesome...i know larh.....everyone have their own issue and problem but sometimes i hope our group could get more stick together like not that stick i mean try to understand each other and try to work out what is the best for our group....cause if we didn't start to communicate and just keep it in our heart...what for...?and members will just start and back stab and politics will come out all like shit....so...just hoping mind set will grow and we should just try to cooperate each other..cause we're a team not a single solo woman or something....team work and trust are really important..so i hope we gonna improve through all this and become a better team as well....btw.....feb 27 is the damn korean cover contest....quite fun lar but the organizer kinda suck larh sorry no offence...cause they keep changing places and date and make us go freaking crazy like wth....every1 is just confuse...and some of the team still quiting the contest....but...somehow..i think all is just not about money...is experience...just think we need to get more experience to go to the more higher level for us...don't know what you guys think abt...but i seriously do very enjoy this competition much...met alots off my fren....its like don't know how many year didn't saw them dy...progression...ahahaa...they still kinda attracting when they on the stage...they have the style i guess.......not very well in dancing but.....entertaining damn good..holy crap all the girls are just crazy for them like shits...!!!ahaha...!!!is a compliment okays...?!!?progression fans...don't mind me kays...??i'm just jealous....ahahaa...!but nvm larh....atleast we still rox the stage...!!EINZLEN LADY.....!!!!SCREAMMMMMM....!!!ahahaa....!!!we always do enjoy when the ordians scream for us...btw...most important....for so long i get a compliment from you...!we know each other like 3 years dy and i get this compliment after 3 years..!!izzit too late huh!!!!!!ahahaa...!!!!u know i'm talking abt YOU...!!!!ahahaha..!u know right...?but nvm larh...i still very love you as a fren....and by the times go by....i have resign the damn job larh...so i will be damn freaking free starting tomorrow...DATE me larh people...!!!!i'm damn single lor okay...!!!!ahahaa...!!!!but mostly i damn picky...!i know right...!ahahah...!i was wondering who will be my next bf anyway....since i don't have any now...and sorry for a dude that keep waiting me and fetch me here and there.....i'm like taking you for granted....!ain't i....??but...i'll stop as soon as well...i hope u could just get over me and you will meet a better girl and i swear..cause i'll pray for you first before i pray for myself to getting a new bf...feel damn bad to see you emo for nothing....but u keep telling me that your feeling better...i just know u don't want get me to worried......i hope we could just stay cool as a fren...don't wanna to lose any fren in my life...every1 is just special in my life..but so so sorry ur not the 1 i'm looking for.....reject is the best way for both off us......what a holiday for me....like been through alots off thing...still kinda blank right now...and i really need to start for my p licence test dy....good luck everyone...may ur day become more precious as ur usual day do....cause every is a precious babe....... you guys....stay peace and stay cool tooo.......hugs and...CIAO'S.....! <3

时间

时间...

时间.....

时间........

才发现我浪费了很多时间...

才发现我想做的事情太多....

yesss..i really have alots off thing i feel like want to do..most off all i don't have time...thin back slowy...where all my time...???what i've been doing all off this time..???sigh....actually....i really really really wanna get my damn licence like seriously..!!!!keep on study for the undang and learning how to drive....but...where's my time...suddenlly have to work...suddenlly have to do this and that...CRASH MAN...!!!CRASH...!!!urgh...i hate when everything come suddenlly...cause....i don't have time for it....sigh....everybody keep on asking me why...but i m tireed of explan again again and again...seriously i don't have the mood larh....i wanted to have a vocal training like seriously..!!!i wait for so long and finally u found me and discuss with it..!!!by that time i have interview a new job...!!!argh..!!see..!!u know what i m saying..?!!!!on the spot..!!!on the same day...!!!!its like damn wtf...!!!!urghhhhh..!!!now i ahve to get my licence..!!!my vocal training..!!!and work...!!!pls larh.....can i just give up working and go for the vocal training instead...!!!!!cause i love it so muchh...!!!!but....other wise i still need money..!!!arghh...!!!!i hate it when ut comes along...!!!!!F...!!!!!how can i seperate the time..??or mayb i should seperate myself in to half so i can make it everything...!sigh......i really damn regret dahhhhh.......FAINT.....almost faint.....ok larh..i know i keep on bubbling on stupid stufff..!!but damn..!!!i know i can do it...!!!!!pls...!!!!just gime me some time and gime me strength plssss...i need it alot...cause....everything is so crazily unstoppable...tell me abt it....don't care whether its going to failed or what...!!!!i m going to take the stupid undang already...!!!!wish me luck..!!cause i have study for it all the time.....for this new job that i just interview...cause i don't feel like staying at home everyday....feel like doing something not just staying at home crap all the time....there....interview a job that i don't really like too...receptionist...!all the account thingy..!!hahaha...!!i know..!!!unbelieveable...!mwah hahaha..!!!seriously..!!i hate to count..!!and most off all i don't like to use my brain to count everything...cause will be damn 7 tiring larh...!ahahahaha...!but...nvm larh.....the salary still not bad.....hope the stylish won't ask me to do more than reception job...don't wanna touch those saloon thingy.....scared off it..!!!phobia off washing hair everyday..!!and hand start cracking..!!!!YUCKSSSS..!!!if u start to ask me to alots off thin...den i'll start to say byebye...ahahaha...!!ok larh....thats all...now..i m gonna start my driving classes before i start the work...but...nvm larh....when working i still have to take some off day to get the licence..!!cause i have to get my licence before april..!!!before i start my collage...!!!!wish me luck in everything..!!!i mean....everything.....feel so release after bubble all the shit out...!!!not a bad day for today..feeling warm and cacat...!ahahaha...hope everyday is just gonna be like this....cause u know why...???i犯贱lorh.....!nights peeps...end with alots off hugging...!!!

ps:i m still miss u....ya i do.....:)

"PHEWWWW....:)"

its kinda late right now..and i always do feel like blogging in this kind of time...

alright....its kinda lifeless week for me...don't know why...

feel like losing myself and is like...always be so freaking blank in my mind....

keep on thinking...how to be a better person....how to get rid off my sucks negative minded thoughts...!!!it will be that difficult...??sigh....is not like my family doesn't treat me well or something....is like i m losing myself....i losing my way....i losing my confident..everything is outta control...even my mind tell me to chill out and cool down....actually my life is full of interesting stuff like frens.....flirt buddies......and i don't have any curfew...i always can go out anytime any where i want.....sigh.....but....y i still feel lonely...???am i really happy...??or i m just acting like i m very happy....laugh and saying sorry....??am i just acting to be strong and its too much and i feeling like falling down right now...??and slapping myself and tell myself (hey..!!!you this stupid bitch...!!!!what the hell are you doing...?!!)can any1 tell me why i m feeling so lost....???is so damn freaking hard to get rid this lost feeling...urghhh...is driving me crazy...and i feel like shouting.....crying....is my stupid period making me not functioning well..???or my emotions are just like to goes up and down like that...???m i in a changing position...??my thinking start changing....my feeling start changing...am i too young to facing this kind of problem...??i m only 18 weih.....i m only 18....!i have great family and frens...and im still here complaining abt all the shits i have...??!DENG.....!!!!is really damn mahai....!!!!!why should i make my life so miserable..?why should i feel stress abt it...??i don't like myself that much...cause i don't even know what i m doing right now....i m not emo abt love....is just...the feeling of lonely-ness keep on bugging me....i just don't wanna find a guy and start to flirt with him and all those stupid stuff...it really doesn't make my life better any way....just rmb someone ask me 1 question...(are trying to hiding urself...??i just don't understand why you could be so friendly to every1...even tho they are just strangers...??y are u acting like this....??)this question been bugging me 3 MONTHS...!!HOLY SHITS....!!!i do really wanna change to some1 like cold..but its so hard....i am that kind of person like to hang out with frens...and what wrong with being friendly...??this is really me....its just me....somehow i thought this person know me well...and he does disappointed me.....because u don't know me well so u just judge by everything i did...and u just have to judge my personality like that...?let me ask u something....what are you doing when u feel sad or upset...??won't u feel like talk to somebody....??or feel like someboddy to care abt u...?don't tell ur not...when she's cold it doesn't mean that she really do......i m just showing myself...and i m clear abt my own personality.....i don't know u..i really don't...cause i think....your the 1 that keeping urself....so...stop calling me bitch anymore...u dick....i smile cause there part of u i still respect for....that why i m still there.....just wanna be strong....and do my things....sorry to show up to ur life...cause i m a BITCH....!!!and sorry for let you gossip abt my BITCH-NESSS......i m so sorry for just being me.......i m very sorry abt it.....:)

move on c:

:::MOVE ON:::

2 months had just fly away like this....

not even a blink for my eye....stupid blog.....i have left out you for so damn long...

sorry weih......always not in da mood to type something.....

arghhhh..have been so fucking lifeless after the breakup....

is always like that...lock myself in the room with alots of junk food....

FUCK.......look in da mirror i just look terrible horrible...!!!!

just don't realize when the time passs....

the pain will flow it away with the time tooo....

horrible feelings are over.......feel release abt it.....

its like GOSHHH....FINALLY......IS OVERRRR.....

but thx to all my fellow cousin, bro's and bestiess....!!!!

i m glad that i m having u all when i m down.....ur all are the most precious humans that i met in my whole life.........still rmb when the nights come i can't stop missing him like shit...!!!

cried cried cried.....over over and over again......some feelings that i would never know....

sometimes when i m really terribly sad i feel like post those stupid stuff abt him.....

a man that changes my everything....

my future.....and....now....all its just a piece of shit....!!!!

NO MORE FUCKINGGGGG PROMISEEEE...!!!!

ishhhhh.....because of ur 1 promises.......i make up all the things for u...

yeaaaa.......bull shit larh....

this is what u pay when a girl give up everything for u...

but this kinda off shit will just happen this fucking onceee..!!!

there's no more sohai yeezie gonna repeat the samething no moreeee...

but....thx to youuu...i learn the biggest lesson for my life....

i learn to be more independent....i learn to love someone with my selffish side....

thats what u want from me..????thats what u want me to become..??

just c.....u'll just c........i'll be the shit for u too c.....

i'll never forget when u said those sentences just infront of my face.....

DO FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.....

yeaaaa..

thats the fucking things u said......

1 day.....i'll throw my fucking money on ur face and said...i m happy to fuck off from ur life....

cause fuck off from ur life i get this money to throw on ur fucking faceeee.....

yeaaaaa.......shittttt.....to geram dy....paiseh paiseh.....

arghhhhh....but....luckily.....

i met someone that understand me well...

his like a fren...his like a brother....his like a loverrr.....

hmmmm.....great feelings...??yeaaa..it doesss..nvm larh....

i wanna stop thing that goes more complicated....:)

:::MELACCA TRIP <3:::

melacca trip is damn freaking awesome...!!!!

really awesome shitssss..!!!!

the 1st day my fren bring me go eat the satay celup...??

if i didnt mistaken the name larh...wah law.....really damn freaking nice lorh.....

i never ever eat this kind off thing at kl b4...

FRESSSSSH weihhhhh....AHAHAHAHA..!!!!

then the 2nd day we went to ikan bakar with my fren family.....

before u reach the place u will c river...

damn ada feel kan..?ahahahaha....tho the river is not that "clean" larh...

as u know.....m'sia river all very "clean" 1 marh...!!

AHAHAHAH......!!!!

shit....insulting......

den the third day i went to ARENA.....

argghhh...the club that held at melacca...

awesome live band weihhhh....

never saw life band in club b4....cause kl doesn't have.....

really FRESHHHH also larh......

still a damn lovely trip for me....

met alots of new frens......

they all really crap king crap queen 99....!!!

can't laugh non stop when crap with them....really 99...!!!!

hahahahahaa.....but....time fly when we enjoy......

my fren gonna fly back to singapore to continue his work....

hmmmm...hope everything are just going to be fine at singapore....

just go for ur dream....!!!!FLY AWAY......

hope to saw u in tv in da future......ahahahaha....

thats all for todayy....

oppps...forget....i have add some fresh music for my blog...if not.....

my blog will be damn dead larh.....

and i will keep on update my blog...if i have something to said larh...

cause everyday repeat the same thing sounds kinda tiring for me....ahahahaa...

good night for the vampire

and good morning for the human...

and....i m da half vampire half human.....<3

okaysssss..!!!!here it goesssss...!!!!!
the same sentences that i will be repeat mostly in my damn blog...!!!
how long i didnt post any thing about my life again...!
arghhhh...becasue of my lazy-nesssss...
so i seldom post something in my dear blog.....
hahahahaaa...willl be have more improvement next timeee...
somemore with broken style english typing......
it will be a little little annoying ....HAHA..!!!
ppl....dont complain eihhhh...:D


okok...back to my topiccccc.....
HOLIDAYSSSS...!!!the fifth week of july is finally comeee..!!!!
have alots alots of plan..!!!MOVIEEEE..!!!CONCERT...!!GENTING..!!!
argghhhh..!!!is damn awesomeeee..!!!
but...is quite random also....
cause i tot wasnt get to go genting to c da myfm concert....
but luckily...still get to go......:)
with my 2 carzzzieeee cousins and her fren...!!!!
and is like damn hyper and damn fun lahhhh...!!!!
ahahahaa..!!cause its beeen 1 year i didnt visit genting dy weihhhh...
is still cold as usual...!!!!and somemore rainingggg...!!!
u can imagine i keep hugging myself and my leg is keep on shaking like nobody else doesss..!!!!
ahahahahaaa..!!
the point is...!!!!!we r damn lucky we still could get in to da live concert cause we dont have da specail tickett...!!!!argghhh..!!the concert is amazingggg..!!!the singer r amazingggg..!!!!!like shhhiitttt...!!!!!! 叮当and 张芸京is damn freaking awesomeee luhhhhhh....!!!!!
i always cry when i hear both of them singgggg..!!!!
is really freaking touched luhhhh...!!!!my 1st whole life listen my fav singer at liveeee...!!!!
SHHHIIIITTTT..!!!!!UNDESCRIBEABLE FEEEEELINGGGSSS...!!!!
hahahaaaa..!!!!my most hyper holiday with my cousin and fren...!!!!!


AUG 1ST MY BABE STACY BUFFDAY...!!!!HAPPY BUGGDAY TO U YA..!!!
BTW.....NOW U ARE DAMN HOT AND SLIM DY LAH,....!!!
FASTER GO GRAB SOME LENGCAI BALIK LAHHH...!!!
aiyksssss...missing da damn time at high scool....!!!
langsung tak ada stresssss..my whole gang is like damn free everytimeee...
walk here walk thereeee..like nothing to do luhhh...ahahahaa..!!!
feaking syiokkkk...!!!ayiksssss....feeling kinda different now while compare da time at high school...
have alot of responsible for my work....
have to think alot....do alot...practice alot to reach my destiny....
gogogo...!!!fight for my dreams that i want it so damn badly....!!!
ahahahahaaa..!!!!i knew i can do itttt...!!!!!!
dreams dreamssss....
i m glad i could fight to my destiny with a beloved man that always stand by my side no matter what....i m glad to have u in my life....i m that is u.....beacuse ur da only 1 could make me change that much.....thx for sharing ur love and life experience with me...
u give me courage...u give me strength....thx my man.....love u so so much....:)

男孩本不想變壞

其實每個男孩,本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠.只是,沒有女孩愛這樣的男還...



10歲以前,他什麼都不懂,就不說了.



13歲的時候,開始對女孩有好感,但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的,並且以討厭女孩自居,生怕被同伴嘲笑.

14歲的時候,聽到大人說某某男人好花,把女朋友甩了,女孩自殺了.

他覺得這人真狠毒,自己將來一定要做個癡情的男人,一定要一生只

愛一個人.

15歲的時候,他喜歡上了一個女孩,但是他不敢和她說.仍然和往常

一樣,髒兮兮的,在灰土飛揚的操場上踢球.只在女孩走出校門的時候

,躲在二樓的窗戶上看他的背影,他覺得他一定是個天使.

16歲的時候,有個女孩喜歡上了他,但是他覺得看別的女孩都是對她

不忠.

男孩曾說過不花心

17歲的時候,看了一個MTV,感動得想哭,他想,如果自己的女孩失去

了雙眼,他一定會像男主角一樣毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她,讓她

能看到光明.

18歲的時候,畢業了,終於和自己暗戀的女孩分別,覺得自己離她越

來越遠,心像被掏空了一樣.還在想自己一定不會忘記她,等到自己

成功以後一定要去找她.

20歲的時候聽到有人說黃色笑話,覺得者人真可恥.

21歲的時候,她的回信中告訴他,自己有了男朋友.他偷偷的哭了一

個晚上.

22歲的時候,他向一個女孩表白,女孩說:"你是個好人,可是我還小."

他想,我的確是個好人.他說:"沒關係,我可以等你."心想,我不會像

那些花心的人一樣,3年5年我也能等.

23歲的時候,說自己還小的女孩和一個帥哥戀愛了.他很納悶,

長大原來可以這麼快.

24歲的時候,又像一個女孩表白,女孩接受了他.他開始很幸福的為

未來拼搏,他想,一時的開心只是暫時的,只有努力拼搏,他和她才能

有快樂的未來,但是,半年以後,女孩和他分手了.只因為另外一個男

孩會說讓她開心的話.女孩說:"你是個好人,是我對不起你."他似乎

明白叻問題所在,他是個好人.



男孩都愛看臉不看胸部

26歲的時候,他開始墮落,交網友.打扮的時尚且酷,而且漸漸的學

習著討好女孩的話.不久.他有了個女朋友,雖然他對她很好,可是,

他心裡知道,自己並不愛她.

27歲的時候,他和她分手了.他對女孩說:"你是個好女孩,是我對不

起你."

28歲的時候,他嘗試了一夜情,發現別人能做的,自己也一樣.

29歲的時候,他學會了講黃色笑話,並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為

樂趣.

30歲的時候,他突然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩,但是卻沒

有了愛的能力.



其實每個男孩,本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人.

其實每個男孩,本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是看胸部.

其實每個男孩,本來都是不會講黃色笑話的.

其實每個男孩,本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的.



只是沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩,他們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚,

太古板,太沒有情趣.

于是男孩開始改變,變成女孩喜歡的那種嘴角掛著壞笑的男人;

開始學會假裝關心,學會給女孩送小飾物討好她;開始學會如何追

求,如何把握愛情,或者是看破紅塵,遊戲情場,成為女人最恨的那

種男人.

他們可以很容易俘獲女孩的心,但是他們也會在黑的夜裡叼這煙

流淚.心裡有愛的時候,沒有女孩;有了女孩,卻永遠沒有愛的感覺

,在聽到女人抱怨世上沒有好男人時,他們不會再去努力做個好男

人,只是擦肩而過.



女人,男孩變壞了,你們就沒責任嗎?!


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