:::MARRIED:::
hey.....yeezie have awife ady....
hehe....n is my 1st wife in my recent life...
somemore is still a hottie...!
huhu....!!!
happy...!hyper...!
but this marrige will be not available....
when we each other find a true love....
kakakakzzz...


:::ABT STUDY:::
huhu....abt spm....still have 3 more subject to go...!
pdg......science an art...!
still confusing dunno what to pick for my art....
cause all the subject need to draw human being 1..!
shit lah...!!cause human is my total weaknessss....!!!!
argghhhh...!!!
dont lah...!!!
i wan get B for my art lah...!!
AZA AZA FIGHTING...!



:::ABT MY FUTURE:::
heard from my fren..
that their dance studio need to hired a assistant...
n i m very interested with it...^^
so....i post comment to my fren n let him know that i wanna try this job...
1st of all......i need money for some important things...
2nd....i love dances..i magine the whole day is full of music n dance stabbing when ur work..
is sounded damn wonderfull for me..cause i love music n dance...
n the studio is held at kota damansara..
is very far from puchong....
so that i m thinking that rent from a room from my uncle...
that live at damansara...hope he will say yes...
cause i really wanna do this job...^^
hehe.....hope my family will say yes too....
n i will still fight 4 my dream...
cause i wan dance..!!
i wont give up dance 4 my whole life...
hope to have real training...not just class..
i m still waiting...
waiting for a real leader to train us...
n lead us to a new future that we always dream off...!
dance dance dance...
my life without dance is really nothing...
every1 have their own dream..
hope every1 may go for ur dream....!!
go 4 ur dream..!
bless u all may sucess too.....!!


:::missing someone:::
i have miss u twice today....
y should i miss u...??
n why i missing u....?
bloody hell for no reason....
whatever...because u will always busy....
haih...
bz...bz...bz..
hope that u haven forget me yet..
nvm.....zzzz......

NIGHTS PPL...
NIGHTS HUMAN....
NIGHTS xxxxxx.....

:::I M BAK...!!!YEEZIE IS BAK...!!:::

my family...my frens...my buddies....every1 that worry abt me....no worries....

i m bak.....yeezie is back....!!!

2 months....is so long....long enough to let me forget abt u...but i know when we were just broke up...i keep begging u to come back....

is damn so silly....but.....after brokeup.....i only realise...

he really is the 1 that suit 4 me....

is just...i keep wan more....more n more.....until he cant stand it anymore..

thats the reason that y we broke up..

sometimes..

if....i didnt did some useless things....

always find some useless thing to argue with him..

mayb we still can last longer....

haihhhh...

the past will always stop at the past...it wont bak anymore...

but...still is the best memory ever....

insect....

thx.....

u let me know more abt myself...

u let me know that i m wrong...

most off guy that i met after we broke up....

they really suckss...!!

damn 9 sucksss..!

u r really good....

good enough for me to rmb all the good ones u that u have done b4....

2day...i went ioi with my fren.....they suggest to eat at little taiwan....

ha...!i just think abt that tis year valentines that we go little taiwan too...

i still rmb we order the bubble tea...

from that on..i will always order the bubble tea...

when i go little taiwan...

n when i was shopping at voir....

i saw the big aquarium......do u still rmb that aquarium..?

i rmb got once....before u come to find me...we have a arguement...!

n u still let the bus go...

cause u dunno whether is right for finding me in the situation like that...

when i ask u.....y u dowan sit the bus..!!!!is so damn hard to wait..!

then u said....i scared u dowan to c me...!

i m like..!!!omgosh....!!!!i say just get on the bus lah..!!!!

kakakakzz...when u reach....u sit at the aquarium there...n watching the fish...

i know u were angry.....ha....!but its cute.......but at the last i still apologize....but i dunno whether u rmb.....

movie...movie.....

actually we have alots of movie we haven c yet...

but then...we broke up ady....

actually.....i dont have any wishes 4 us anymore....

no more begging....

no more love.....

i know this is fren feelings.....

but......i wanna ask u...

will u wtach "new moon" with me...?

i hope u do.......

cause....i hope ur the 1 go watch "new moon"...

"eclipse" and "breaking dawn"...with me...

cause...u said b4...u wont pak toh..in the next two years...

so.....wont have gf ask u to wacth this movie with u....

haihhh....i hope....i can ask u 1 day.......

i hope ur ans will be "yes"......

if u saw tis post.......just...let me know.....

whether u will go watch this movie with me....^^

goshh...!!!juz hate myself....!!!
if i juz open my facebook earlier...den i can saw the charity events...!
arghhh...!!!!misss it again.....
sorry cousin.....
hope the charity of dota event is still sucess...
coz..i really hope it sucess also...
nowadyas....keep myself busy....
try my best not to thinking of u....
yea..is hard...but...atleast i try....
every1 is trying their best to sucess all the things dat they care...
some1 dat care abt their family...
some1 dat cares abt their frenss...
some1 dat cares abt everything...
feel like i waana care too...
i knoe there is someone r need caring...
more den us do...
no time 4 crying....
no time to think dat i m pity....
bcioz...yhere r alots of ppl needs our help outside....
donate money donate blood...
even is juz a small thing dat wecan do...
but atleast we have save some children life...
i knoe dat i always still waiting 4 a chance..
love ppl more...so 1 day sure have a ppl dat meant to be love u bak...
ha...!s2pid....


anyway...cant sleep now....i feeling tired...
but something is confusing me...right now...
mr..can u give me the ans...??
juz tel me......coz...
sorry dude...!
i m not ur doll....!!!
dun play with me...
is tired to fooling around...
stop it.....coz..i m tired ady...
n stop using me..i m not s2pid....!

racing with the time..
racing with the taers..
finally...
i have comfort myself...
even i knoe its still not very well..
atleast..i still can study..
keep on moving 4 my life...
is a fresh thing 4 me...
i knoe...
my family n frens r worry abt me...
but......i wan to thx them..
n i wanna tel them i love u all...
thx 4 da supporting..
i mean everything...
u all r the one makes me awake from the pain...
n i thx 4 u all...
is hard to start from the begining...
but...atleast i m not alone.....i still have u all.....
thx.....^^

tuesday

11:37am

17/08/2009





being no mood at all..!

having pressure like shit...!

trial..trial....trial...!

is driving me nutss...!

facing the same problem...

like.....everyday......

only dance can make me forget abt everything..

throw myself into the music...

enjoying the beat...flowing with the movement...





ur attitude is making me go crazy....

i m like...wat the hell u mean....?

sms is unmatured...?

phone eah other is unmatured...?

acc each other is acting childish....?

i dun understand....~

wat do u mean by matured...?

u juz only 1x....

i.....didnt wan more from u....

izzit...a little bit of caring....will make u feel disgusted....?

issshhh.. goin to screw myself...!!!





i juz feels like i m goin to say...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U....!





jenjen....where r u...?

yeezie needs u....!

omg....

jenjen....~

wuwuwuwuwuwu....!

today didnt go to studio...

coz our taecher tonight have a show need to perform...

haizz....boring...

nothin to do at home...

juz do some revision n write some essay..

hmm...

my skool trial exam is coming...

strat to feel nervous ady...haizz...

today...feel kinda moody...

because have an arguement with xxx...

i think is not srguement also...

juz...he telling the truth..

the truth dat i cant even accept..

haiz....y is tis happening again...?

i dunno y....keep facing da same problem again..

haizz.....god...!!r u enough ady...?

i m facing family problems...

is starting to let me getting tired...

watever i wanna do...

will always not be acceptable....

y...?

i juz need some1 dats knoe me more...

cares abt me more...

arghh....!!!!speecless abt everything dat happens to me...

wat should i wish 4..?

i wish 4 a family dat cares n know abt me...

i wish dat...u might be....there 4 me...

coz..i m goin to fall....anytime...any moment...

其实我到底还在等待些什么..?

你的回应吗...?

明知道是不可能改变的事实..

为什么我还是要抱着那渺小的希望呢..?

是我笨...是我蠢..永远看不清..

醒醒吧...蔡丝伊....~

:::a happy n secure day:::

wake up in 11 something...

there was noise coming from the living room...

looks beside me...my cousin all were wake up..

walk out from the room..

every1 is watching tv...

feel kinda secure when i c they all..

my cousin....they still there...

not like home...when i wake up....i always feel lonely...

coz...when i wake up i will always heard them say "moring"...

very comfortable...very sweet...

there is always something dat i cant even wants from my family....

hmm....but...i will always get from them....

ha...!i m very glad they were here with me...

after i wash my face...

we all went out 4 having our "brunch"..

"brunch"=breakfast n lunch...

we go a cafe dat name "departure lounge"....

when i walk in....i feel very nice...

coz...the cafe makes me feel dat i m home...

hehe...got a fermiliar feel when i walk in..

hmm....den....no 1 is taking order from us...

coz we need to pick ourself...

there a paper there n u can choose the food dat u like..

n make it to a set...

hmm....i choose...

chicken hotdogs,turkey ham,scramble egg,harshbrown,n two bread..

if u knoe me...u will knowhow much i hate strawberry flovor...

but..need to admit their strawberry jam is yummy...!!

kakakakzz....

every1 is eating n laughting...

keep talk crap....

kakakakzzz....

is a happy moment 4 my life..

i feel happy if i m with them...

i noneed to hide all my feelings...

i nonit tot hink wat to say...

i juz will say it out loud....

i m here..i knoe dat i m not lonely...

i m here...bcoz..i knoe...my lovest cousin very sayang me...

i love them very very much...

thx 4 being here with me...

thx god 4 letting me having them as my cousin....

i m happy n i m proud....

i have 2 smart cousin dat always wont look down at me...

i have a crazy cousin dat will always hayper with me...

is enough....really enough....~

haha....~