racing with the time..
racing with the taers..
finally...
i have comfort myself...
even i knoe its still not very well..
atleast..i still can study..
keep on moving 4 my life...
is a fresh thing 4 me...
i knoe...
my family n frens r worry abt me...
but......i wan to thx them..
n i wanna tel them i love u all...
thx 4 da supporting..
i mean everything...
u all r the one makes me awake from the pain...
n i thx 4 u all...
is hard to start from the begining...
but...atleast i m not alone.....i still have u all.....
thx.....^^

tuesday

11:37am

17/08/2009





being no mood at all..!

having pressure like shit...!

trial..trial....trial...!

is driving me nutss...!

facing the same problem...

like.....everyday......

only dance can make me forget abt everything..

throw myself into the music...

enjoying the beat...flowing with the movement...





ur attitude is making me go crazy....

i m like...wat the hell u mean....?

sms is unmatured...?

phone eah other is unmatured...?

acc each other is acting childish....?

i dun understand....~

wat do u mean by matured...?

u juz only 1x....

i.....didnt wan more from u....

izzit...a little bit of caring....will make u feel disgusted....?

issshhh.. goin to screw myself...!!!





i juz feels like i m goin to say...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U...!

FXXK U....!





jenjen....where r u...?

yeezie needs u....!

omg....

jenjen....~

wuwuwuwuwuwu....!

today didnt go to studio...

coz our taecher tonight have a show need to perform...

haizz....boring...

nothin to do at home...

juz do some revision n write some essay..

hmm...

my skool trial exam is coming...

strat to feel nervous ady...haizz...

today...feel kinda moody...

because have an arguement with xxx...

i think is not srguement also...

juz...he telling the truth..

the truth dat i cant even accept..

haiz....y is tis happening again...?

i dunno y....keep facing da same problem again..

haizz.....god...!!r u enough ady...?

i m facing family problems...

is starting to let me getting tired...

watever i wanna do...

will always not be acceptable....

y...?

i juz need some1 dats knoe me more...

cares abt me more...

arghh....!!!!speecless abt everything dat happens to me...

wat should i wish 4..?

i wish 4 a family dat cares n know abt me...

i wish dat...u might be....there 4 me...

coz..i m goin to fall....anytime...any moment...

其实我到底还在等待些什么..?

你的回应吗...?

明知道是不可能改变的事实..

为什么我还是要抱着那渺小的希望呢..?

是我笨...是我蠢..永远看不清..

醒醒吧...蔡丝伊....~

:::a happy n secure day:::

wake up in 11 something...

there was noise coming from the living room...

looks beside me...my cousin all were wake up..

walk out from the room..

every1 is watching tv...

feel kinda secure when i c they all..

my cousin....they still there...

not like home...when i wake up....i always feel lonely...

coz...when i wake up i will always heard them say "moring"...

very comfortable...very sweet...

there is always something dat i cant even wants from my family....

hmm....but...i will always get from them....

ha...!i m very glad they were here with me...

after i wash my face...

we all went out 4 having our "brunch"..

"brunch"=breakfast n lunch...

we go a cafe dat name "departure lounge"....

when i walk in....i feel very nice...

coz...the cafe makes me feel dat i m home...

hehe...got a fermiliar feel when i walk in..

hmm....den....no 1 is taking order from us...

coz we need to pick ourself...

there a paper there n u can choose the food dat u like..

n make it to a set...

hmm....i choose...

chicken hotdogs,turkey ham,scramble egg,harshbrown,n two bread..

if u knoe me...u will knowhow much i hate strawberry flovor...

but..need to admit their strawberry jam is yummy...!!

kakakakzz....

every1 is eating n laughting...

keep talk crap....

kakakakzzz....

is a happy moment 4 my life..

i feel happy if i m with them...

i noneed to hide all my feelings...

i nonit tot hink wat to say...

i juz will say it out loud....

i m here..i knoe dat i m not lonely...

i m here...bcoz..i knoe...my lovest cousin very sayang me...

i love them very very much...

thx 4 being here with me...

thx god 4 letting me having them as my cousin....

i m happy n i m proud....

i have 2 smart cousin dat always wont look down at me...

i have a crazy cousin dat will always hayper with me...

is enough....really enough....~

haha....~

its 6:30 in da morning....

my arlam clock haven ring yet....

still feeling damn sleepy...

so...i juz flop down to continue my sleep again...

ha...!!!

suddenlly....i heard a loud sound...yeap...!!!its thunder...

how long dat puchong have been rain b4....?

its kinda comfortable...sleeping while is raining...

feel kinda cold...

but....some 1 is knocking my door...!!

is my mum...

haizz......paksa to wake myself up..in a nice sleepy mode....!!

while...i fnis brsuhing my teeth n my face...

feel kinda better...

atleast wont feeling sleepy anymore...

go to downstaris....

there is a cup of hot chocolate on da table...

is a nice thing ever....when u drink a cup of hot chocolate in a big rainy day...!!

feel so "xing fu" lah...!!

kakakzz...

i juz pass foward my skool life...

coz...is bored...!!

kakakzz....

after finish my class...

i follow my team mate go giant....

buying hair spray 4 our canteen day....

yea....4get to mention dat aug 1st..is our skool canteen day...

our class is prepare to open a small saloon dat can cruly the hair....

straighten the hair....

still got colour...but its juz spray on it lah...!!

but....i pick some colours dat is kinda nice...

like....

purple....red.....

dun imagine dats lala....

bcoz...aiyks....dunno how 2 explain also...

nvm....juz 4get abt it....

there are goin to have aloths of food store...!!

omg...tummy feel kinda hungry when think abt it...

omg....~

still got haunted house...

flying fox....

cool huh...!!!

i ady c the haunted house design...!!its like damn so CREEPY...!!!

our skoolmate r juz so cool..!!!they design their own huanted house...

i will take some pictuire....den let u all c...~

hehe.....

after finish buying things...

den i straight went bak home...

because..i wanna baked a cake....

hmm...

its kinda yummy....

hehehe.....

but....tis time..i think i add abit more of sugar...

kinda sweet...

aiykss...

would he like it..??

worrying...~~~

hehe...tis my day....

how was ur day....?

blessing all my family n frens...

happy n peacefull...

love u alll...~

muax...~

:::hmmmm....::::

fifnt go to skool today....
coz...1st i having plans to going somewhere....
but...suddenlly.....some 1 have chnaged the plan...
erm...i dun even knoe y...
n the someone also didnt tel me y...~
omg...wat a boring dayzz.....
reach ioi at 1:30....
go in popular to find some books to read....
reading books 4 pasting the time...
is kinda lonely...coz..thre is only me....
but...luckily....studio open at 3 pm...
after dat....i m goin to studio....
coz....atleast got ppl chat n play with me...
when finish reading books...
den i only rmb dat i m goin to buy e-pop....
finally...still have 2 at there....
kakakzz.....
tis is the second time i buy e-pop...
becoz of some1 lah....
haha...finally...saw his creepy face on da e-pop....
but...still quite nice actually...
hmmm......taking bus.....goin studio....
when i reach studio...tere is no 1 held...~
so..i m waiting kim at downstairs....
reading breaking dawn....
keep thinking another question...hmm..hav u finish ur test yet...?
but.....i c my phones....not ringing...or anything...
hmm.....weird feelings...again...~
nvm....after having lunch with kim....
feel damn full...
kakakzz....~
when bak studio.....
i juz fall asleep like a pig.....
hehehe....
coz....wait until 8pm i m goin to start my dance lesson...
so...i go in da room juz rest 4 a while...~
hope my head will goin be better...
after my dance lesson 10:30...i only rmb dat i have my dinner yet....
aiykss....feel damn hungry right now..~
juz now go check the frig...i found a burger...
omg....thx god....i put in da oven n wait it to heat....
after den i get to dig in...!!!
kakakakzz....
wat a happy moment 4 my life....
now....update my blog 4 mr legin teh.....~
becoz he sampat 1 lah...~~
wanna c my new thongs....
legin...i think u muz be miss me until xiao ady...~
kakakakzzz...~~~
tis blog is upload 4 u 1...~
juz hope u wont felt sienzz or anything...
nitez..nitezz....~

finally some have new picha with mr insects....

i like tis 1 the most...

hehehe.....

buggy....we 2 goin have to attend competition the same day....

hmm....i really hope to support u there....

hope we 2 can did our best n enjoy the perform...

gabanteh 4 mr insect n ms yeezie.....~